Worthlessness, Hopelessness, Helplessness

First of all, my apologies for not blogging for the last couple of days.  Last week I caught whatever, "bug" Anneka had.  It wasn't that bad, but I had an unexpected reaction to it.  It set off my mono.  I caught mono about 20 years ago.  If you have it, you know that you never get rid of it.  It knocked me out.  I lost all my energy.  Well, I'm on the mend, but I'm not out of the woods yet.  I'm increasing my calorie intake along with my vitamin intake.  This usually puts the mono back into remission.  So your prayers are greatly appreciated.

I noticed that while I felt, "lousy" I was very prone to feeling worthless, hopeless and helpless.  It was an irritating and defeating feeling, to say the least.  While laying on the couch, I couldn't help but think the worst about my situation.  Painful as it was, I just didn't have the strength to fight back.

I read the Bible.  That didn't help.  I prayed, and that didn't help (or so I thought).  I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me?  Then a nurse friend of mine who knows my history clearly diagnosed my problem.  "DOH!  I thought.  I knew this!  This has happened to be before!"  But the self-defeating thoughts were still flooding my mind.  Then I watched my online mentoring program this morning.  Because I've been down, I haven't watched it for a few days.  What was it about?  How to hack your brain of the three things that will defeat you every time.  Worthlessness, hopelessness, and helplessness.

2 Timothy 1:7 for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.

You have to face your fears every day.  But if you face them, a little bit more every day you will eventually conquer them.  Franklin D. Roosevelt said, "Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the assessment that something else is more important than fear."  He's right.  Your family is more important than your fears.  Your future is more important than your fears.  Your relationship with Christ is more important than your fears.  Do you get it?  Christ gave you the power, the love and the self-control that you need to conquer what this world will tell you every day of your life, especially when you're down with mono - you're worthlessness, hopelessness, and helplessness.

PRAY:  Dear Jesus, I know that I'm not worthlessness, hopelessness, and helplessness.  But I need your Holy Spirit to help me have the power, the love and self-control to overcome it.  AMEN.  


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