My story is one that tells the hope and future that God has given to me. My husband & I were college sweethearts. We married when we were 20, and decided to wait 5 years to have children. In our 5th year of marriage I went into respiratory distress. My lips, and fingernails turned black, and my eyes were bloodshot and bulging. At one point my husband was told to call the family together that I had less than 20 minutes to live. Instead he called upon God. Within 20 minutes I had done a 180 degree turn. I was told I could never have children. I had acute asthma. My lungs could never sustain childbirth. Even if I did get pregnant the large number of steroids that I would have to take for the rest of my life would most likely cause severe birth defects. We were crushed.
I remember the pain of seeing others have children, and thinking how unfair it was. Why were they so blessed? I remember the countless nights crying out to God for a child.
Over the next 2 years God slowly began to heal my body. My doctor was amazed. When I only needed to take 2 medications, only one of them a steroid, the doctor told us I was healthy and fit. If we wanted children, now was the time. We began to pray for the right time to conceive. God just kept saying, "Soon, but not yet"
For the next 10 years, God kept saying..."Soon, but not yet" Just 10 days after the 9/11 tragedy, God said "NOW". Oh the joy and excitement a few weeks later when we found out we were expecting. God told us it was a boy and we were to name him Jordan, which is Hebrew for "Flowing down from Heaven above." Like all expecting parents we told everyone, and began buying things.
On November 5th, 2001, I had a miscarriage, and the angels carried little Jordan into Jesus' awaiting arms.
I soon became pregnant again, and again, only to lose each baby to miscarriage. We never gave up, but began searching God's Word for answers. Over and over, God just spoke Jeremiah 29:11 into our hearts. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
We stood on God's Word & kept claiming Jer. 29:11 as well as Malachi 3:10,11 "And I will rebuke the devourer for your sakes, and he shall not destroy the fruits of your ground; neither shall your vine cast her fruit before the time in the field, saith the Lord of hosts."
In October 2002 we conceived a child for the 5th time. Many times I tried to miscarry, but each time we just claimed that I would not "lose my fruit before it's time".
On Valentine's Day, 2003, God gave us a gift. Once again I tried to miscarry. The doctor decided to do an ultrasound. For the 1st time, we saw our little princess. She looked healthy, everything was normal. On the way home, God spoke to our hearts and told us her name was to be Anneka Jordan. We had never heard the name Anneka. It is Swedish for "God's Grace". How perfect! Her name means "God's grace flowing down from Heaven above." Better yet, I am 3/4 Swedish. God is SO GOOD!
When I was 20 weeks pregnant the doctor discovered through another ultrasound that Anneka had multiple cysts on her brain. That the best option was to abort and try again for a healthy baby. Once again, we were crushed, and we cried out to God. We stood our ground, and refused to abort, but instead, got everyone we knew praying. They did an ultrasound on me every 2 weeks with the same results. After 6 weeks, Praise God! The cysts were gone! The doctor was amazed!
After 20 years of marriage, our little Princess Anneka was born. Today, she is a happy and healthy 10 year old. What a blessing of God she is!
Since then, we have had 1 more miscarriage, and have decided not to try for more children. I have 5 children waiting for me in Heaven. I look toward my future with hope that one day I will get to hold them when God takes me to Heaven. God has blessed us more and abundantly with Anneka. We have a task laid before us to train her in the ways of the True and Living God.
God has truely given us a Hope and Future, and He wants to give you one also. Never give up on the promises of God.